I went to Baby's piano teacher's party last night. After we came back, I kept thinking of what I saw even as I slept.
I don't understand why fathers love their children. I always feel that something is not right when I see fathers loving their children. It is hard to put in words. Although I know that fathers love their children because they are their own children, this fact can't seem to make sense to me. I know the logic, but I am unable to feel it no matter how hard I try by looking at other families.
Another thing is, I don't understand how men and women can love each other so heartily and sincerely. Yes, I always see these in movies and even real life, but something in me can't make sense of all these. The feeling is complicated. I am not sure if anyone else at all would feel what I feel.
I am 21, turning 22 this year. Yet I am unable to understand such natural and simple things!! I have really tried and kept telling myself the logic. But I still feel weird when I see such things happening around me. I can't imagine why fathers love their children since it is so easy for them to have children. Like my father. A sperm will do. I can't imagine why men would love their wives. Why?
Maybe I will never understand the love from men forever. Perhaps it is the shadow of my past and present, the shadow father cast on me so deep that it will haunt me forever. It may never be erased no matter how much love from men I witness or even feel. It is already a part of me. I grew up with it.
I don't understand why fathers love their children. I always feel that something is not right when I see fathers loving their children. It is hard to put in words. Although I know that fathers love their children because they are their own children, this fact can't seem to make sense to me. I know the logic, but I am unable to feel it no matter how hard I try by looking at other families.
Another thing is, I don't understand how men and women can love each other so heartily and sincerely. Yes, I always see these in movies and even real life, but something in me can't make sense of all these. The feeling is complicated. I am not sure if anyone else at all would feel what I feel.
I am 21, turning 22 this year. Yet I am unable to understand such natural and simple things!! I have really tried and kept telling myself the logic. But I still feel weird when I see such things happening around me. I can't imagine why fathers love their children since it is so easy for them to have children. Like my father. A sperm will do. I can't imagine why men would love their wives. Why?
Maybe I will never understand the love from men forever. Perhaps it is the shadow of my past and present, the shadow father cast on me so deep that it will haunt me forever. It may never be erased no matter how much love from men I witness or even feel. It is already a part of me. I grew up with it.
