I just called back to check on Baby as he is having an admission test with Jurong JC tomorrow. He cried as if there is no tomorrow. He tried to get the admission fee of $550 from father but got scolded badly instead. (Father came back a few days ago.) He didn't even want to give a single cent for his sons' education after he got so much money from my mum's death. And after he promised us at in front of his sister that he would support our studies. He said he could not afford to send us to school.

I don't know what to think and what to feel anymore. Suddenly I feel like smoking. I don't feel like facing all these again and again without an end. Does God really exist? I prayed my whole life. He never help me. Does anyone know where He is? Can you ask him to help us?