Sigh. I was wrong. I thought they (relatives) believed us after we found them the evidence. Why? We are the victims. I thought they should help us to accept it. But it is the other way round. People don't want to believe there is such a person like father in the world. No matter how many facts we put in front of them they won't accept. Yeah. They have a choice. They can deny the facts and choose not to believe so and carry on with their own sweet life. But we CAN'T!!! We have NO choice!!! Why does everyone seemed rather to believe that it was our fault for everything that happened to us? Yes, it is easier to blame the good people and tell them to change rather than to tell someone they deep down know will never become good person to be good to his own children. It is so much easier if the good people stop showing them the truth about the bad people, so that they can get on with their happy life and don't have to struggle with the world that there is such a person. But it is so unfair to us. They think we want to believe there is such a person in the world? What more a biological father!! They think we enjoy it? They think we like to have this kind of father? Yeah. They asked us to think in their shoes, not to tell them where they went wrong because they are one generation before us. How smart. But nobody will ever think in our shoes. They are not bothered to care how much it hurt us knowing that we have such a father. No. They only want their life to be perfect. They won't allow any impurity to spoil the wonderful world they have known for the past 50 years or so. They can't accept anything that makes them doubt what they have believed in for so long. Yeah. But this is THEIR imagination. We are not blessed with this. So go on to believe this and push away every fact that we put in front of them. But please for God's sake don't hurt us anymore. Don't tell us that we didn't treat that beast good enough that's why he hates us. Whatever you want to believe that beast is go ahead. We won't prove to you anymore. After all it doesn't do us any good. You still will not believe us. How nice it is to say that you don't want to believe that there is such a father and you choose to think positively. We wish we can do this too. Who likes to know a father like a beast? You can say all you want about what you want to believe. Yes. You have a choice but we DON'T. As adults instead of helping us to face our fate and escape from this beast eventually you choose to dismiss what we have faced for our entire life. Yet you said you are really concerned about us. You asked us to tell you if we suffer so that you know and you can help. Bullshit. How could you help when your heart is not even with us but instead choose to be with that beast? No sense at all. If that beast is so nice then help us get our study money from him!!! No you can't. You are outsiders. We just have to be nice to him and he will support us. All bullshit. If you are unwilling to face the truth and help with the reality, don't pretend. We only get the feeling that you are just hypocrites. So fake that you tell the whole world you only want to believe in the good sides of people but not willing to face this 'good person' you so love and tell this 'kind person' something so natural as to love his own children. Yeah. Go on and tell us not to waste money going aboard to study because we can't support ourselves since he is not giving us money. Oh you know. So you know the fact that he doesn't want to give us a single cent for our education. You know. Then why do you keep telling us that he is a nice person who will support his children when you know the truth? And you choose to believe him. How contradicting. How funny. We are the ones suffering under him including your own sister but instead of helping us to accept our fate you try to make us go back to the dangerous beast! Why? Because you don't want to have to burden yourself with our problems. You want everything to go back to before and want us to cover up everything he does to us so that you don't need to know all the bad things in the world and don't have to worry yourself about us. You want your peaceful life back even after your sister is dead because of him. Then just SAY IT. Don't have to try to pretend to be concerned about us when you don't want to. We feel that your concerns are getting faker. You don't want to face the REAL problem. Either you are scared, or you are selfish. Only pretend to be concerned for us at the surface. I am wondering whether father is right afterall. And since you want us to believe in this beast, perhaps we should. We should believe that you are trying to harm us, shall we? Perhaps it will be easier for us. Perhaps when he speaks ill of you and curse you we should not defend you and should do the same. And then we don't have to be scolded by you for not listening to him and making him angry at us. Yeah. Maybe we should not stand by you at these times anymore. And we don't have to be hurt when you tell us we didn't respect him enough and when you always try to speak up for him in front of us. We won't have to be defending you in front of him and be hurt when you scold us because of him. Can you see how contradicting all these sound?